Life!

what shall i talk?
where should i start??

hesitation....

fall in love with "olivia ONG"
A Singaporean singer who under SNS(japan).
her singing style was like very smooth,soft and feel relaxing .

at the beginning,i dunno who is olivia ONG ..
is my EX,he sent me a youtube link and show me her song
i remember that the 1st song i listen to.
is "L.O.V.E"
meaningful lyrics ever!

L-is for the way you look at me
O-is for the only one i see.
v-is very very extraordinary
E-is even more than anyone that you adore.

But NOW!
everything had changed ...

i had gone through the most awful life ever in these period ,
no ones can really imagine how terrible my life go through!

i lost my confidence at all that time.
i lose myself by hiding in room ,lied on bed and cry...
without foods,without cosmetic and etc!
my eyes was swollen after few days cried.
i seem like losing whole world...
for two-three weeks long...

no ones can really understand me ,
one of his friend wrote bout me in her fb.
ask me stop all the actions if really wan him to stand up again!.
i wish him could stand up too...
but who wish to me to stand up again...
who knows how much me n him had been gone through in these years.
by lastly ...he just told me "i doesn't love you anymore!"
who can understand my feeling??
A 2 years love exchanged to a hurt...!
how ridiculous !?
how hilarious !!?
i keep blame on my fault!!...
blaming myself....
but who knows the reason behide ?
NO ONES !!!! including ME!
no ones can really understand what he think!!
i asked for his reason but he seem hided of his reason.
i asked and asked ...lastly he did told me.
but im not sure whether is true or he really tired of love me.
i cried of my fault.blame for my fault.
BUT NOW NO MORE!

i rather chase after my dream instead of love a person ,
it's was a tiring job for me,NOW...
i totally lost mine,tat time! mayb im the one who really care so much...
i hope his family can really use another eye sight to see a improved him
but not a childish...
mayb im not his perfect GF.

To HIM,
u never know how hurts m i while the time i find u and talked.
u told all the bad side me !
u now how hurt am i???
but i wont blame ,i just will blame on myself for cant changed you.
hope u can find a person who worth you to love...
i wish you ...REALLY!

MUM and DAD,
u know what!?you two are my BEST PARENT EVER!!
i glad to have you two ...Really!!!
mum,
when i noticed that you cried of my deprivation because of relationship problem,
m feel so guilty~!!!
i shouldn't make u cry...
MUM,sorry~
dad,thanks for giving me support!
you are the one who 1st stand out when i was fall.
everything u done because of us.
u never blame on our mistakes ,but consult us ..improve to be better.
Dad,Thank you!

and SORRY!
both of you not even can get a well sleep at night,
because of my problem...
i felt sick ,
i have no own power to protect you two but keep makes you two worried about me ..
im a failure GF and Daughter ever!
i shouldn't cried of him...


and because of my parent,
i need to cheer up myself.
i lost a bf but i gain back a family!
it's worthiness enough!!!=)
<3

i admitted that i still love him now,
but i will respect him...
love doesn't mean to hold it,but let go^^
dun wish to force anymore...
wish him luck in his studies,further career and love & family~
^^