love .let go.freedom

i miss you again ,today.
but i dun wish to let you know.
just forget about that.
it's over .
totally over .

human.
they used to learned independent .
dun down and emo anymore.
me and you.


is time to get back your own track,
do what you supposed to do!
<3

believe,
believe yourself,
dun simply fed up !
life isn't easy as we thought ,
but it's fancy and vivid that we might unexpected .

love always be ours side,
be calm ,
and feels it smoothly.
u can actually fall with it
smile blissfully!
=)))

the most supportive love does not from him/her.
but F-A-M-I-L-Y.<3
love yourself and your family before u love others.
<3

A nice song to share.
"越爱越难过”---from 吴克群

爱，真的不一定要拥有.
如果你要走，
我不再挽留。。。
以前，
我一心执着想知道分手的理由，
我的固执，
骗了我自己，
以为你对我还有一点的挽留。。。

事实上，
人往往都要跌过，
才明白痛的滋味。。。

其实回头想想
放手，
会是我们俩的自由。

至少，
我们自由了！

the only secret deep from my heart

the very 1st time i cried because of H-A-P-P-Y!!!
thank you so much!
you made my day!
you pulled me out from hell,and bringing me to the colorful world.~
i smile blissfully

give up?

since the pathways walked through already different ,hold it doesn't make a move. why don't let go.....? guiltiness & regretful also become useless anymore. Giving up might be a RIGHT choices?

thanks PENNY!

I'm a Typical Gemini girl who can laughed at morning,emo at night !
haha!!!

yesterday ,emo again>.<''
dun ask why,
because i don't know too.....
was chat with one of my old friend,
A girl which's younger than me.
yet her thinking ,
was so matured....


she told me this
>>>

虽然想起他 心还是会揪
虽然深夜 并没那么好过
勇敢 是你对自己的承诺
再想念 也不会回头
一直 不敢去面对的寂寞
习惯就好 也没那么难受
其实你该谢谢 他离开你
让你 找到真正的自由

Lara （我不再怕）这首歌也唱出来了...
觉得这些话挺激励的，可以把它唱出来作为；
暂时麻醉心里的痛，的麻醉药也无妨哟... :):)


不是不允许你堕落，不是不允许你不开心。
你可以，但，就一阵子哟，一阵子就好了。
时间每分每秒都是在过着的，要珍惜...用来提升自己。
你可以把内心的爱情的那扇门锁起来...
总有一天，你一定会等到有那扇门钥匙的人，让你再度打开=）


这次，
你在爱情和两个相爱的人相处之间的 “该do” 与 “不该do” 中，
又学到一堂课了哟^^
你可能输了这场，但就是输了这场
而赢了 未来即将来的那一场！


而不是一直哭哭啼啼的向他道歉，每天求他的原谅，
诉说着自己有多怀念以前，一直叫他回顾以前，或问他还爱不爱自己。
这些可以，但2次就够了。
与其这样，倒不如振作起来。


如果真的还爱他，就该微笑的向他说；你的心会等他回来。
停止一切对他的问候，信息，拨电...
但，如果他有事时，你的时间，你的耳朵，永远会为他而准备做他的听众。


然后，你要恢复正常生活作息，改变你觉得自己不对的地方，做个比现在更成熟的自己！
我觉得会不断长进的女人，比起呆在原地苦求到失去自我的人还来得有魅力，更值得一个男人去爱哟=）
让他见到你的从前的自信，你的成长，你的懂事，你的诚心悔过而改变的自己。


要相信，下一秒里，下一分钟里都存在着一万种可能！
我永远支持你！
要知道，支持你的人可以组成一队啦啦队了咧！
看，你人缘极好咧。
所以，开朗的啊娴，返嘞啊！！XD

PENNY,she were just sweet always.
i liked the way she talked.
she seemed like the worm inside my stomach.
she can really understand ,
why i being that...and gave me a really good advice.

i shouldn't make my friends worried about me,
in the past 24 days,lots of friends asked me,advised me,consulted me ~
really thankful i got THEM!
no matter Facebook friends,NEC & INTI friends,hometown buddies ...
they really gave me lots of care.
thanks for their accompanied too!!!
and thanks to my current roommates!
they saw me cried more than smile.
they always consulted me,cheer me up!

may,i doesnt love you !

11th MAY 2011
the third week we broken up...
the feeling for me seemed like still remain the same.
my heart still with him,
Don't know why...
sometime things cant be explain,
just based on human feelings.

decided not to disturb his life,
i tried to reduce my actions,
at the mean time,
it's increased my miss to him...
but i always tell myself ,
I CANT FIND HIM....=((((

miss those days when i fall sick,
i got his warm care,
NOW,
the only left to me just coldness and medicine accompanied .
when hear of the songs he show me last time,
my tears suddenly rolling down ....
his shadows surrounding me ...
it's make me blaming myself always ,
and turn into emo mode.

i dun wish to EMO!
but!
im just lost control....

sorry

im too baddd!! sorry....
i realized his comment after 2 month..
so bad meee!!!!!!

im the one who no care him,not him!!!><''sorry!!!

Life!

what shall i talk?
where should i start??

hesitation....

fall in love with "olivia ONG"
A Singaporean singer who under SNS(japan).
her singing style was like very smooth,soft and feel relaxing .

at the beginning,i dunno who is olivia ONG ..
is my EX,he sent me a youtube link and show me her song
i remember that the 1st song i listen to.
is "L.O.V.E"
meaningful lyrics ever!

L-is for the way you look at me
O-is for the only one i see.
v-is very very extraordinary
E-is even more than anyone that you adore.

But NOW!
everything had changed ...

i had gone through the most awful life ever in these period ,
no ones can really imagine how terrible my life go through!

i lost my confidence at all that time.
i lose myself by hiding in room ,lied on bed and cry...
without foods,without cosmetic and etc!
my eyes was swollen after few days cried.
i seem like losing whole world...
for two-three weeks long...

no ones can really understand me ,
one of his friend wrote bout me in her fb.
ask me stop all the actions if really wan him to stand up again!.
i wish him could stand up too...
but who wish to me to stand up again...
who knows how much me n him had been gone through in these years.
by lastly ...he just told me "i doesn't love you anymore!"
who can understand my feeling??
A 2 years love exchanged to a hurt...!
how ridiculous !?
how hilarious !!?
i keep blame on my fault!!...
blaming myself....
but who knows the reason behide ?
NO ONES !!!! including ME!
no ones can really understand what he think!!
i asked for his reason but he seem hided of his reason.
i asked and asked ...lastly he did told me.
but im not sure whether is true or he really tired of love me.
i cried of my fault.blame for my fault.
BUT NOW NO MORE!

i rather chase after my dream instead of love a person ,
it's was a tiring job for me,NOW...
i totally lost mine,tat time! mayb im the one who really care so much...
i hope his family can really use another eye sight to see a improved him
but not a childish...
mayb im not his perfect GF.

To HIM,
u never know how hurts m i while the time i find u and talked.
u told all the bad side me !
u now how hurt am i???
but i wont blame ,i just will blame on myself for cant changed you.
hope u can find a person who worth you to love...
i wish you ...REALLY!

MUM and DAD,
u know what!?you two are my BEST PARENT EVER!!
i glad to have you two ...Really!!!
mum,
when i noticed that you cried of my deprivation because of relationship problem,
m feel so guilty~!!!
i shouldn't make u cry...
MUM,sorry~
dad,thanks for giving me support!
you are the one who 1st stand out when i was fall.
everything u done because of us.
u never blame on our mistakes ,but consult us ..improve to be better.
Dad,Thank you!

and SORRY!
both of you not even can get a well sleep at night,
because of my problem...
i felt sick ,
i have no own power to protect you two but keep makes you two worried about me ..
im a failure GF and Daughter ever!
i shouldn't cried of him...


and because of my parent,
i need to cheer up myself.
i lost a bf but i gain back a family!
it's worthiness enough!!!=)
<3

i admitted that i still love him now,
but i will respect him...
love doesn't mean to hold it,but let go^^
dun wish to force anymore...
wish him luck in his studies,further career and love & family~
^^

领悟

人，总要失去后才会领悟。。。

曾经的我。

我没有像偶像剧般的爱情，
但我有一段温馨，刻苦名心的爱情。。

唯一一段让我想认认真真的“爱情”-逝世了
“他”没有富裕，赫世的家庭，
但，
他有一颗“富裕”的心~
一颗“爱-心”。。。

他-
就是我的“奇男子”，
爱，疼惜，包容，关爱。。。

但。


我-
爱，疼，霸道，野蛮，


最终。。
断送了-幸福


现在的“我”-
爱。就希望他幸福，
希望他快乐。

爱。
不一定要拥有，
而是-祝福。


心。
不介意痛

愿意。
承受所有的苦，
来换取“他”的
快乐与幸福。。。

祝福他^^