Another Emo night falls to me

problem never stop comes around me.I have no idea what's going wrongs with,I starts blaming on myself,questioning myself is it the matter began on me?character?
GOSH,I couldn't figured it out thou.Kinda upset with today,no related with my works,yet A.G.A.I.N ! with my studies matter. Hell,this might be the most harder test ever god given to me.I couldn't find the way out right now.totally struggling now.What am I supposed to do ?How I gonna solve it?I got to figure it out before April,2012.
should I extend a semester or not?lot's of question surrounding my head like stars,headache me.I feel so Emo,helpless,and hopeless.No ones can understand me ,understand my condition and my problem.I know we're now not longer a teenager,but adult.I wish my matter not to bother others.I hope I can handle it well.In fact,it shows a failure signal.

how am I going to solve all these?
I need some guidance .

outstation during weekend

went to my uncle house warming last Saturday which located at Shah Alam.
my uncle is a bachelor,he lives double storey house alone,wonder won't he feels afraid for staying alone,for me..I WILL .haha!!! by the way,he believe on Thai Buddhist,he's kind of loyal prayer .

kinda in love w' house buffets in Shah Alam.their decorations are unique and attractive.and all foods are "HALAL". the most attract me is the ais kacang.i ate double.hehe!!!


On the next day morning (sunday) ,me and family went to centro,klang to have our brunch together relatives.hmmp...the shop kinda famous,I GUESS due to crowded over there.but when comes to taste,i think it just so so,nothing special for me .
but still need to blog about it.hehe!! :D
here I attach the link : http://www.paoxiangbkt.com
maybe next time you guys can taste it your own.<3

courage quote

It takes strength to be firm and it takes courage to be gentle.

It takes strength to conquer and it takes courage to surrender.

It takes strength to be certain and it takes courage to have doubt.

It takes strength to fit in and it takes courage to stand out.

It takes strength to feel a friend's pain and it takes courage to feel your own pain.

It takes strength to endure abuse and it takes courage to stop it.

It takes strength to stand alone and it takes courage to lean on another.

It takes strength to love and it takes courage to be loved.

It takes strength to survive and it takes courage to live.

madness got covered my brain.

sigh.
I totally sick of these mess.I was thought I could able to run the programme well.yet,I MESSED UP.I'm not trying to offend any ,I meant it.I'm not enough ability to lead ,or not "lead".. somehow,"it will always run out of original"and "things never goes smoothly as you expected" .GOD ! every fall is to tell how strong you are to able get urself up,and never say "NO" to challenges!smile to face ur fears.

The Attribution

朋友，是什么？
好朋友，又是什么？
定义又在哪里？

生活在这里，
这些问题时不时绕在脑海里。

I'd learned lots.
while the meantime,
I'm hesitating,
is there 100% truly ,sincere friendship?
in the world?
I can't guarantee there's 100% friendship,
at least in my social circle.
我不想。。想，
但，我不得不“想”，

这个圈子，
太多的“假”，太少的“真”。。。

P/s: you,"曾，心-心。你",
thanks for disappoint me
看开，淡开。
一切，以“不”为先。
不问，不闻，不听，不看。
这世界会美好一些<3

If

if...and if ...and if...and " IF "~

life's full of challenge ..

treated a people nice does not mean she/he will pay back as same.
some people,will smile infront of you,be nice to you
BUT,
turn to the back,it will absolutely changed.

life life life,
life are fulled of 'IF'..

motivation's gone

bla bla bla...wulala!
life life LIFE!
i Hate STUDIES LIFE .

class class CLASS,
non-stopped classes
GRR!>.<''
i getting crazier!
SUPER DUPER...!

PHewwwss!
thanks god it's sem 5 nw.
2 more sem i gotta peewwwttss(run away)!
GRADUATE...
Teheeehee^^<3


but i have a serious headache,
due to mountains of fuxking assignment'Ssss!!!
i failed to reached my lect' basic requirement.
guess iod lose my passion to be a designer.
where's my future pathway?
it seemed blur.
why?
why?
WHY?

where should i look for my motivation?
i feel strange with what i'd done now.
i need some advice to guide me to move on.

bisou bisou
=(

X rainie X

stick with Starbucks

woots!
what a life !
i just love Starbucks

and I'm in Starbucks shop again ! yea !
it's a Friday night as usual.
my mood getting down due to scolded by my lecturer.
what a stress.!
just feel like wanna escape from town.
=(
week 10,
i feel weak and confuse with my studies pathway.
Grr!
almost near to final,and i couldn't find a focus point on my studies !
Hell yea.
i think so.

=(((
each time of bearing pressure.
the only i think;STARBUCKS! <3
starbucks cheer me up <3

sharing equal caring

Forgiveness Doesnt Change Past,
But it Brightens Future.

Forgiveness are important,
not only for YOU and Me ,
But ALL OF US.

forgive,forgive.
A heart with L.O.V.E
Sincerely love,
100% treat a stranger with full heart,
and how bout family n friends?
how many person can exactly do that.
sometimes we just need a person
who can exactly pay with Sincere heart.
at the meanwhile ,we do understand that...
how's the world nowadays.
people used to covered their face with mask.


this video not only touched us.
but wake us up from the reality.
A Fake and cruel world.
PLS...,Pls help or try ur best to help,
help those people who really need our help.
stop being a selfish people.
let us hold hand by hand ,create a peaceful world.

watch with ur eyes,
feel with ur heart,
help with ur LOVE.

Oops! Untitled

La...........la...........la..........

well,well .....WELL

officially a year 2 design student,
feels G-R-E-A-T,honestly.
one and half year to go,
and i gonna graduate from this jungle place.
and fly to SG work or oversea to continue studies?
ngek ngek XD


well,I'm quite free in this semester yet i've learned lots new things.
for example like getting more inspiration for designs through fabrication knowledge,batik technique,textile ideas,and etc......

life❤

Don't know what happen to me recently,i love to blog.
to express somethings that i wont sounded out in life.
to release out all my bad feeling,
to encourage myself to changes better.
that is M.E-

Life doesn't have forever pain.
deeper pain, it will heal one day
stormy now ,doesn't mean it will rain forever.
life,the harder time may pass.
we cant sit there and wait for the disappeared,
we need learn to strike it.go thru with it.
life,doesn't have forever love.
A love with a hesitation,
it wont be last long forever.
it will ends someday.
believe yourself,
believe time can heals.
everything can pass slowly.

an appropriate fed up,are the new way of life❤

把别人看得太重，结果却被别人看成什么都不是...

heart's diary on august 25th

Time isn’t gone fast as I’ve thought.

Life’s getting "bussier" as assignments & presentations showed up together. How hard? When I was thought I‘ve put down all those messed love stuff, in fact…deep from heart, the feeling was getting deeper, especially the feeling towards him. I have no idea about why but, I got to admit that I miss him, really really miss. His voice, actions, and everything are my power of mood last time. As what I’d mentioned last time, I’m not strong enough. I have to remind myself everyday:”rainie, it’s time to let go, he’s not owned by you anymore, you got to set him free.”But, I’m a stubborn girl, even a thousand people tell me got to forget about him, but I still failed to do that.
Every time viewed on his “Facebook”,I wanna know his latest news. What he’s done lately? How’s his life again? All those question mark float up my mind.
What I supposed to do to overcome this bad feeling? I just want to be myself .A cheering girl who’s smile everyday =((

i understand that if i wanna be happy ,i have to learn how to let go.
im a girl who lose a relationship ,but i still the "babe" for my family.
i win a love from my parent.
A couple who never gave up on me.
my Daddy and Mummy.
they never reject whatever i requested.
and they are the one who support me when i was in difficulties.

forget and let go.
my world can be wonderful
<3
time can heal.

it's july two thousand and eleven

satisfaction July?

no doubt!
i have been through a hard way during July.
a lost of love make me stand up and look clear.
look clear?doesn't mean i fed up on guys.
but i had truly understand,
sometimes,
Love does not mean supposed to be together.

back to my own track eventually!
my studies & life.
it ain't easy to passed through.honestly!
but i did it.
thanks god for the strength.<3

shopped lots.*laugh*
this is the way i cheer up myself.
sharing is caring,
im not showing off.
but i just wanna drop some part of my life detail for myself in my own bloggie.
teheee!!!<3

let's start the sharing session!!!!

< A >
he is my nephew,my cousie's son.he is a cute boy which are full of curiousness minded,friendly,clever ..etc.character.i like to take picture with him ,he is so cute and handsome all the way.*^^



< B >
one day outing at Malaaca.A place which nearby my town with closer friends and my fav of cake <3



< c >
One of my fav.doubtless! i <3 shop
bought all this when big sales.
i love da bag so much.



< D >
colors my life by captured the moment.
it's an instanx film camera!<3
my new toywieeee!

A lovely mood.

i got to force myself blogging again.
since it had been a long time abandoned by me =)))
hmm! guess that I'm recover .
not for 100% but i believe i can get over from the sadness.
L-A-S-T-L-Y <3

busy for my assignment and examination recently!
quite afraid ...
i dun wish to retake.
the fall of relationship makes me fed up on everything,
sometimes,i was think to quit from studies
but i understand how much effort my parent put on me,
i shouldn't disappoint them.

A fall of relationship doesn't meant all.and it shouldn't...
we will find a good one eventually,
but now ,
it wasn't a good timing.

good nitez! dearies and strangers.<3

..............

no much more expect on coming 21st,
and i feels not to celebrate it.
Better.

when i think of my bday,
suddenly i feels upset.
the truth of breaking up.
it will just make me remind of it.
a celebration without him...

i can cheer ,i can smile everyday...
i can even hide my real to reveal a fake
but it's doesn't mean ...
i had forgotten him.
hmm!
god,could you pls skip my 21st?
i dun hope to celebrate it...
honestly.
it will just make me more tearing,more things to hide up.

T.T

love .let go.freedom

i miss you again ,today.
but i dun wish to let you know.
just forget about that.
it's over .
totally over .

human.
they used to learned independent .
dun down and emo anymore.
me and you.


is time to get back your own track,
do what you supposed to do!
<3

believe,
believe yourself,
dun simply fed up !
life isn't easy as we thought ,
but it's fancy and vivid that we might unexpected .

love always be ours side,
be calm ,
and feels it smoothly.
u can actually fall with it
smile blissfully!
=)))

the most supportive love does not from him/her.
but F-A-M-I-L-Y.<3
love yourself and your family before u love others.
<3

A nice song to share.
"越爱越难过”---from 吴克群

爱，真的不一定要拥有.
如果你要走，
我不再挽留。。。
以前，
我一心执着想知道分手的理由，
我的固执，
骗了我自己，
以为你对我还有一点的挽留。。。

事实上，
人往往都要跌过，
才明白痛的滋味。。。

其实回头想想
放手，
会是我们俩的自由。

至少，
我们自由了！

the only secret deep from my heart

the very 1st time i cried because of H-A-P-P-Y!!!
thank you so much!
you made my day!
you pulled me out from hell,and bringing me to the colorful world.~
i smile blissfully

give up?

since the pathways walked through already different ,hold it doesn't make a move. why don't let go.....? guiltiness & regretful also become useless anymore. Giving up might be a RIGHT choices?

thanks PENNY!

I'm a Typical Gemini girl who can laughed at morning,emo at night !
haha!!!

yesterday ,emo again>.<''
dun ask why,
because i don't know too.....
was chat with one of my old friend,
A girl which's younger than me.
yet her thinking ,
was so matured....


she told me this
>>>

虽然想起他 心还是会揪
虽然深夜 并没那么好过
勇敢 是你对自己的承诺
再想念 也不会回头
一直 不敢去面对的寂寞
习惯就好 也没那么难受
其实你该谢谢 他离开你
让你 找到真正的自由

Lara （我不再怕）这首歌也唱出来了...
觉得这些话挺激励的，可以把它唱出来作为；
暂时麻醉心里的痛，的麻醉药也无妨哟... :):)


不是不允许你堕落，不是不允许你不开心。
你可以，但，就一阵子哟，一阵子就好了。
时间每分每秒都是在过着的，要珍惜...用来提升自己。
你可以把内心的爱情的那扇门锁起来...
总有一天，你一定会等到有那扇门钥匙的人，让你再度打开=）


这次，
你在爱情和两个相爱的人相处之间的 “该do” 与 “不该do” 中，
又学到一堂课了哟^^
你可能输了这场，但就是输了这场
而赢了 未来即将来的那一场！


而不是一直哭哭啼啼的向他道歉，每天求他的原谅，
诉说着自己有多怀念以前，一直叫他回顾以前，或问他还爱不爱自己。
这些可以，但2次就够了。
与其这样，倒不如振作起来。


如果真的还爱他，就该微笑的向他说；你的心会等他回来。
停止一切对他的问候，信息，拨电...
但，如果他有事时，你的时间，你的耳朵，永远会为他而准备做他的听众。


然后，你要恢复正常生活作息，改变你觉得自己不对的地方，做个比现在更成熟的自己！
我觉得会不断长进的女人，比起呆在原地苦求到失去自我的人还来得有魅力，更值得一个男人去爱哟=）
让他见到你的从前的自信，你的成长，你的懂事，你的诚心悔过而改变的自己。


要相信，下一秒里，下一分钟里都存在着一万种可能！
我永远支持你！
要知道，支持你的人可以组成一队啦啦队了咧！
看，你人缘极好咧。
所以，开朗的啊娴，返嘞啊！！XD

PENNY,she were just sweet always.
i liked the way she talked.
she seemed like the worm inside my stomach.
she can really understand ,
why i being that...and gave me a really good advice.

i shouldn't make my friends worried about me,
in the past 24 days,lots of friends asked me,advised me,consulted me ~
really thankful i got THEM!
no matter Facebook friends,NEC & INTI friends,hometown buddies ...
they really gave me lots of care.
thanks for their accompanied too!!!
and thanks to my current roommates!
they saw me cried more than smile.
they always consulted me,cheer me up!

may,i doesnt love you !

11th MAY 2011
the third week we broken up...
the feeling for me seemed like still remain the same.
my heart still with him,
Don't know why...
sometime things cant be explain,
just based on human feelings.

decided not to disturb his life,
i tried to reduce my actions,
at the mean time,
it's increased my miss to him...
but i always tell myself ,
I CANT FIND HIM....=((((

miss those days when i fall sick,
i got his warm care,
NOW,
the only left to me just coldness and medicine accompanied .
when hear of the songs he show me last time,
my tears suddenly rolling down ....
his shadows surrounding me ...
it's make me blaming myself always ,
and turn into emo mode.

i dun wish to EMO!
but!
im just lost control....

sorry

im too baddd!! sorry....
i realized his comment after 2 month..
so bad meee!!!!!!

im the one who no care him,not him!!!><''sorry!!!

Life!

what shall i talk?
where should i start??

hesitation....

fall in love with "olivia ONG"
A Singaporean singer who under SNS(japan).
her singing style was like very smooth,soft and feel relaxing .

at the beginning,i dunno who is olivia ONG ..
is my EX,he sent me a youtube link and show me her song
i remember that the 1st song i listen to.
is "L.O.V.E"
meaningful lyrics ever!

L-is for the way you look at me
O-is for the only one i see.
v-is very very extraordinary
E-is even more than anyone that you adore.

But NOW!
everything had changed ...

i had gone through the most awful life ever in these period ,
no ones can really imagine how terrible my life go through!

i lost my confidence at all that time.
i lose myself by hiding in room ,lied on bed and cry...
without foods,without cosmetic and etc!
my eyes was swollen after few days cried.
i seem like losing whole world...
for two-three weeks long...

no ones can really understand me ,
one of his friend wrote bout me in her fb.
ask me stop all the actions if really wan him to stand up again!.
i wish him could stand up too...
but who wish to me to stand up again...
who knows how much me n him had been gone through in these years.
by lastly ...he just told me "i doesn't love you anymore!"
who can understand my feeling??
A 2 years love exchanged to a hurt...!
how ridiculous !?
how hilarious !!?
i keep blame on my fault!!...
blaming myself....
but who knows the reason behide ?
NO ONES !!!! including ME!
no ones can really understand what he think!!
i asked for his reason but he seem hided of his reason.
i asked and asked ...lastly he did told me.
but im not sure whether is true or he really tired of love me.
i cried of my fault.blame for my fault.
BUT NOW NO MORE!

i rather chase after my dream instead of love a person ,
it's was a tiring job for me,NOW...
i totally lost mine,tat time! mayb im the one who really care so much...
i hope his family can really use another eye sight to see a improved him
but not a childish...
mayb im not his perfect GF.

To HIM,
u never know how hurts m i while the time i find u and talked.
u told all the bad side me !
u now how hurt am i???
but i wont blame ,i just will blame on myself for cant changed you.
hope u can find a person who worth you to love...
i wish you ...REALLY!

MUM and DAD,
u know what!?you two are my BEST PARENT EVER!!
i glad to have you two ...Really!!!
mum,
when i noticed that you cried of my deprivation because of relationship problem,
m feel so guilty~!!!
i shouldn't make u cry...
MUM,sorry~
dad,thanks for giving me support!
you are the one who 1st stand out when i was fall.
everything u done because of us.
u never blame on our mistakes ,but consult us ..improve to be better.
Dad,Thank you!

and SORRY!
both of you not even can get a well sleep at night,
because of my problem...
i felt sick ,
i have no own power to protect you two but keep makes you two worried about me ..
im a failure GF and Daughter ever!
i shouldn't cried of him...


and because of my parent,
i need to cheer up myself.
i lost a bf but i gain back a family!
it's worthiness enough!!!=)
<3

i admitted that i still love him now,
but i will respect him...
love doesn't mean to hold it,but let go^^
dun wish to force anymore...
wish him luck in his studies,further career and love & family~
^^

领悟

人，总要失去后才会领悟。。。

曾经的我。

我没有像偶像剧般的爱情，
但我有一段温馨，刻苦名心的爱情。。

唯一一段让我想认认真真的“爱情”-逝世了
“他”没有富裕，赫世的家庭，
但，
他有一颗“富裕”的心~
一颗“爱-心”。。。

他-
就是我的“奇男子”，
爱，疼惜，包容，关爱。。。

但。


我-
爱，疼，霸道，野蛮，


最终。。
断送了-幸福


现在的“我”-
爱。就希望他幸福，
希望他快乐。

爱。
不一定要拥有，
而是-祝福。


心。
不介意痛

愿意。
承受所有的苦，
来换取“他”的
快乐与幸福。。。

祝福他^^

丁当-很爱过

since u dont want,then i dont want anymore too=)

life should be more colorful and brightness.
and i already lost,because of i din cherish appreciate.
now what i can do is giving both of us time to forget.
thanks for making me lose weight alot btw...XD

in fact i can really guess ur thinking now,u had ad decide to break,decide back to ur single life,u say that u wan own ur single life...go ahead !
wont stop anymore!=)
life shud live it up!
=)

i let u go doesn't mean i don love you,
but i released.
i understand that love cant be forced.
i noe and i regret that i din cherish u last time ,
no matter how u treat me good ,i not even put my eyes and look on it..
is my fault...cant blame!!!

i feel so relax after talk to my dad,
i will still treat u as friends.
concern as friends.but NO MORE concern like COUPLE!

we still have few decade years to go.
life shouldn't get stucked like now.
liew king yang,the last post to you
!the last song for you too!
wish u happiness!=)

temporary closed??!?

T.T

累了。。。
是该休息了。。

=(
努力已经没用了，
我的心真的无力了。。。


我不明白。。。

不明白。。。。。

T_T

evol

feeling different.
different with all ways.
no more romance,no more sweet talk.
this gonna be our last memories.
I GUESS....
the end of our story...

i have no more motivate to force u did smthg u really dislike .

i just want to know ur heart ur voice.
what u actually think.
if u really thinks that
the best way for us is release.
i will respect.
this time.


because i have understand the problems
and also you.

no more blame
no more tears.

no more friend too.
because what i can say is
i cant accept u as my friend.
sorry...
SORRY.....

A love shape never broke

thanks god we are okay now!
i do not know what will going to happen next.
but im really tired of all dispute...
i just wanna peace.
and i learn to change ...
especially my temper.

truly appreciated!
off to bed
*yawnzZz
nitex peeps & world

love=(

Love,
and always because of LOVE.
LOVE,
it's sounds attractive
and everybody gonna go insanely because of it.

in FACT,it was no so charming for me anymore.
i felt sick of it.TOTALLY.

i believe every LOVE has their limits.
when it comes to the end.
everything will be in GG.COM(Game over).

no ones can truly understand what i feels.
NEVER EVER.
sometimes,when love's end.
we gotta leave too,no matter how unwillingly we are.
although it was hurt!
truly hurt...
no one can understand the feeling being hurt
unless u had tried before.

=(

unknown

what's matter between us.
i got no idea for it.
and i dunno why our way are turn to so hard ,suddenly!
i trying to put on his burden while he's trying to make me happy.
but I,as a normal girl,
i really wish to get his love ,his caring always.
and i always think he dropped me alone there.
is this all are my fault?
perhaps that!

i love him ,and im the girl who's care too much.

i mind that!
All about him!
until today,our relationship sudden gone .
with some reason.
i start to regret,
but i knew that that is really impossible to get back like past.
because everything has changed.
totally out from origin.

what i can do is just bear of my tears from rolling down
and continue my life.
my new life without his existence.


Love is there ,but the character make it out from origin.
and now become zero.

T_T
rainie

raining heart.

cry is for a day,hurt is for a life.

girls,
appreciate & cherish a guy who treated you nice and always.
those asshole who do not appreciate,
fuck them!
they're not deserved to be treated nice way!

xoxo
rain's

=(

time doesn't heal anything.
what we can do are just bear of it..
we have to learnt be strong ...
at least in front of people.
hide up the most weakest heart.
sadness mode,emotional face.

cry are useless...
u can release but not recover.
since decision has made.
we must learn to accept.

=)smile.

happy bday to YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

yea,it was my cousin birthday last night!
and we were wonder how if she don't want to come out ?
but luckily !
she say YES!

we go to the same place as well.
"XNG GUANG K_BOX"
aiks! wonder why we always went there.
haha...between,no choice ...
who asked Segamat so undeveloped!

the greatest and touchiest moment appeared!
she rolling down her tears with touch!
she was so surprising ...
when the time we took the cake into the room
and start singing the birthday song!


>>>happy birthday,shuqi<<<<


>>>> 10+ Friendships,and it will hold until forever <<<<<


>>>>>Group Photo's<<<<<

say bye to US.

forgiveness is not that simply given to you ANYMORE !
because u've no enuf qualify on that....

i have no words to say now!

except FUCK OFF !

o0o!

equation!?

A quote said that:" the longest distance ever in the life are when the time i stand in front of you but u cant feel my existence!"

Love are the most complicate stuff in our whole life.

listen and see people's story ...
it might wonderful as Cinderella's story.
OR NOT wonderful as we think!


if we are ready to committed in a relationship,
we shall be steady to care ur partner feeling.
Am i right?

Love shouldn't end by MADNESS.
chill!

before heading to Japan

countdown-ING for 2 days more .
FRIDAY,I gotta left my lovely home for 20 days .
heading to japan for my studies & travelling.
kinda excited !
I'm feel great and glad too to join this event.
wish it'll be my memorable trip .
god bless me!hehe =)

recently busy for packing luggage.
"HELL!">>>the only word i can describe! haha~
it was the toughest part ever!!!
headache!!!(>'.'<)

put in ,take out,put in,take out!!!
that's what i actually did! haha~
what should bring huh???
i have no idea on it!!!
foods,clothes,mufflers,gloves,shoes,skin care,camera...
what else???
LOL


by the way,
cherry blossom,hot spring,shopping,disneyland,temples ...
all are waiting for me!!!!!!
woootttsssss!!! yeeepieee!!! yeahhh!!!

cherish your beloved person in your lifetimes

A important person ever in ours life .
we've been live together for 16 years,
we take care of each others life,
no matter what!!

he been leaving us for 14 days,
only tears accompanies us and his family members!
we still can't accept the fact although we looks strong.
may he rest in peace...

happy belated valentine

yea ! im BACK FROM KL....
after stayed there for 3d2n.
well,had a great celebration with babe,
i love you so much!
and i have to admit it ,
you really give me a surprise with successfully !!!
thank you so much! babe!
we went GARDEN,which are located at Mid Valley to had our lunch
there was a good place for photo shooting.
BUT,the food there wasn't nice at all.
so,we went to my favorite place "ZANMAI SUSHI HOUSE"
yea!!! i love sushi's !
keep on orders!
haha~~~









love the present he gave me!

only wish

hey ! night people's!

the only WISH i hope to achieve since i was 16.
hope it will success one day!
my only wish.





D-I-E-T

friends always says that i wont be succeed ....
because i had voice it out this message to them for N-times instead of taking action.
so,they're not going to believe it anymore.
haha!
i try hard before.
and i understood that ...
i din put much effort on it.
medicine,exercise,reduce meals,and etc....
all i try before.
but USELESS.
because of my laziness!!


my dad keep complaint me recently!
i wanna try! SERIOUSLY!
but sometimes we have to understand the condition and environment too...
no ones willing to put on weight.


and finally you know,

S_P_E_E_C_H_L_E_S_S

valentine with budd's

pictures shows happiness
these all are how I spent my valentine with friends.
check it out !

we went for pizza hut and we've been waiting and calling for a long time
yet the waitress was slight our existence.
felt so mad with it.


we planned to sing k after meals.
unfortunately,
shop are closed on that day,
guess the shop owner went for celebration too.
we have no place to go.
so,we decided photo-shooting.

Rest In Peace.

my dearest 3rd uncle had passed away.
on 15th FEB 2011,
the next day of valentine.
everyone couldn't accept the truth ,
he officially leaves us without any omen.
my tears are non-stopped rolling down
when i looked at his face,
i felt so upset.

may you find peace in heaven.
R.I.P,uncle.
my deepest condolences to my dear cousins and 3rd aunt.
take care.

after valentine.

wonder all bloggie's are busy for sharing their love story to their sweet blog now.
stay sweet and lovely ya!
HAPPY VALENTINE!

for those who are still single,
cheer up! and enjoy ur single life.
hope you'll find ur Mr/Ms.Right soon.

to my lovely babe,LIEW KING YANG!
happy valentine too!

i dun like this valentine!
feel so strange with this valentine.
both of us are forced to separate
because we staying at two different state.
*dislike*,*dislike*,*dislike*
i don't like this feeling.
it's totally make me into a dark mood..
i want to stay at his side right now.
let him hug me tight & kiss my forehead.
i wishing that,but it wouldn't happen.
i knew that.

Moody Valentine.

i know tat we shouldn't argue on valentine.
but i have gone my limitation.
and i don't know why!

sometimes ,i dun wish to get a expensive present from you.
but ,at least a wish!
a love wishes from you,
for a day special belong to US.

can you understand?

V 'day,14th Feb

V'Day mode are everywhere.
it will be 2nd valentine for us after 12am ,later.
happy valentine ♥

have you guys think about,
what are the most pressie you wish to receive ?
a bucket of flowers?

or a box of chocolate?

or other else???
haha! i choose nothing !
because we are not going to celebrate this year.
I'm alright.


purposely silent my phone and turn offline in Facebook,
stupid action right.?
and you never know the reason behind.

i still care,
i still cant accept,
no matter how i convince myself.
and finally i choose to hide up.

and YOU,
never refresh yourself.
even though repeating the same problem for N-times.
it's fine.
because i don't want to blame on you anymore.

at last,
i choose to give up myself.


happy valentine to all lovely couples!

sentiment

does people has the right to judge?
or should rectify as:
can people simply judge?

in this beginning of 2011,
nearly to the end of world,2012.
everyone still lives in their own.
some people are giving the max hard work for their life,
fight for a bright and better future,
but some of them are fed up on their life?
alcohol themselves on the middle night.
human are very complicated.


A question...
when love is exist,
where's friendship will be?

only the party will know the feeling.
but not an outlier.


as age grows year by year,
everything will change!
no matter how!?

somehow,a friend told me that,
sometimes friendship can be describe as "heaven and hell"(2h).
why?
some friends can trust until the end of world...perhaps!
some friends can betray u until the last moment you breathe.

human searching for a trusted person in their whole life,
and because of it,
they gonna burn themselves into hell,lastly!

honestly,sometimes a good pretender are loathsomely than a betrayer.
wonder how they are good in acting and fooling around.




faker,pretender,betrayer and stalker too !
FUCK OFF o0o!!
U'RE NOT WELCOME TO MY WORLD!




xoxo
rain
11th feb 2011
05.15pm

bunny year??

Chinese New Year's mode has officially turn off.i guess!
wonder everyone had grown their fats?hmm!i am the one!
hmm~! have to turn on my diet plan immediately.

everyone starts to busy after CNY.
some are busy on their studies,examination,works...mayb!
and I'M BUSY FOR NOTHING!
and it might be my most humdrum holiday i ever had.
yea,I'm in holiday after Chinese New Year.=(

ignore the bads!
let's update some latest news and pictures !
cheer=)

A crazy fun with budd's during my CNY!
a memorable "kong-ming"lanterns at CNY's eve.
was so surprising to saw my ex-high school mate during CNY's eve.
he usually back on 3rd day of CNY or after.




steamboat at ker chon house,gambling&chit chat.
we also have a beer session at Dataran Segamat.
a heaven for gadabouts and couples.
haha^^






guess that i had a decade year din meet up with my pri-schoolmates.
someone organize a gathering and i've been invited.
quite strange with them and dunno what should talk.
damn embarrassed!!!=(




visit few friend houses during CNY,
and Pn.Cheh house too.
A high school account teacher.
miss her much,and her voice.
meet her once a year.
kinda upset bout that.








meet up with penny on night,at pizza hut.
hmm..was wonder how long we din meet up!
she's a very friendly and nice girl
i like her attitude much.
her mind was so matured compared with me.=(
she's only 18 now.
but,she's so understandable,
she's a filial girl.
she never complaint .
yet, she try to reduce parent's burden.
SHE'S A VERY VERY GOOD GIRL !!
i like her so much.







lastly,wish all of u have a memorable bunny year ,happy 2011=)
miss you all


xoxo
rain
31th jan 2011
04.30am